Entropy

Keep starring at that face in the mirror; the lines of your cheeks look soft, lips are big and voluminous, eyes big and round. Your gaze is a mix of darkness and light, the never ending concept of life.

Being self absorbed is a thing of hurting Ego; in a deep despair to fix wounds and to make amends, to stitch the Ego with velvety strokes of affection, care and high-worthiness, we create thunder and roars.

The need to overly analyze and continuously stare at a self reflection of pain, anguish and partially demolished personality carries dangerous weapons: thundering and roaring words like “depressed”, “ugly”, “not worthy”, “stuck”, “trapped”, “anxious”, “disgusting”.

The loop replaying on and on, the microscopical inspection of every decision, every aspect, every human interaction, every inside feeling, every thought is always an act of Ego. And the Ego doesn’t know how not to suffocate the Self. The Ego repeats the same patterns, thoughts, loops that created it.

This means that breaking away, finding a solution simply means that you look somewhere else; not the mirror, not the face, not the lips, not your insides. The solution is in what you have achieved so far, in what you have around you right now.

The solution is in the now, the present. In the things you can afford already, in the family you have already, in the life you’ve built already and in all aspects you’ve been lucky enough to receive and/access and on which others have never even come close to knowing.

Feeling thankful is the other spectrum of feeling depressed, anxious, scared of the future, disappointed, unfulfilling. Thankfulness only comes when you stop comparing and measuring things that are only projections of your mind and not the real thing.

What you can see, feel, hear, touch, taste are the things you already have in your life. Those are the ones you should be thankful for. And thankfulness, in return, will dissipate any pain you might feel right now, that’s ripping you apart.