From my younger years
Tale no. 2
As a teenage girl, I used to find solace in writing. Most of what I wrote never saw the light of day, it was self-dismissed as “not good enough” or “just a rambling”. But, as I stand here and now, almost 30 years of age, I realize all I was and all I am are merging together more and more and taking shape of self-acceptance.
Based on this, I have decided to publish the works I find relevant to the online medium and I also hope there is learning and enjoyment out of it, not just by myself, but by others as well.
So here it goes. A series of tales, from my younger years.
There’s been an observation in my mind that keeps on ringing between my ears like a loosened chord of some kind… After some time meditating over past events, I’ve reached the conclusion that youthful is life, beauty is life and everything excluded from those two elements is not life, is just a lingering, a simple “in between” kind of life, way too sober and grey, too still and frustrated.
And I’ve come to agree with the idea that if you’re not youthful and beautiful, then you are lost in a grey sea of resentment that can quickly transform you in an evil statue, a comic-book villain.
And yes, there are way to stay young and beautiful: you must have an open soul, a warm heart, to be able to love unconditionally (not conditioned by anything), to have a keen spirit, to enjoy basic things in life, to be able to look around and realize the true dimension of one’s achievement without underestimation or unsatisfactory feelings.
I have reached the conclusion that without these essential traits, we are lost in a maze, a cold jungle, monochrome and scary.
But there is much to work in order to achieve these traits or to unravel them from one’s behavior: one must let go of every remorse, every bad thought, every sad interpretation of one’s memories. One must let go of physical youth, physical beauty, superficial friendships or superficial bonding, useless spending of time, unproductive activities of all sorts, and must focus on what’s really important, really valuable around one’s self.
It’s not only hard, it is also a process that’s inconsistent with life events, cyclic, not continuous. Therefore, we ought to make it a constant and improved process of out bettering ourselves.
Written in December 2013
