The power of Strangeness

You think you have your life figured out; there’s a nice house, the nice neighbors, the nice job, the nice car and the nice weekends where you get to simply go out and sweat your accumulated thoughts into a nice run.

There’s a certain familiarity to having things “arranged” as you’ve depicted things will come to be arranged. There’s definitely a calmness to all the safe and secure activities you’ve managed to implement day in-day out, as it was painted to you by countless family talks, school talks, colleague chatter and media in general.

You thought having a nice life was all there was to it.

But you start to remember that “nice” is “not enough”.

“Nice” feels “dead”.

And I say that you remember this, because deep down inside, way back when your mind was just making dreams and possible outcomes on your adult life, back when you were only a child, you said to yourself “I won’t settle for nice”.

There have been many times when your mind wandered to what it would feel like to stand on the edge of “extraordinary” and “different”.

And there you go, the click happens.

Steadily, slowly, it infiltrates into your present reality and it grows so much that, at some point, it starts to scream at you “what the hell are you doing!?”

And then you know. You know that nice is not nearly enough. You know nice is not what you entirely need. You develop the urgency to change your present reality.

You switch careers. You abandon friends. You move cities. You move houses. You know new people. You don’t allow new people to get too close to you though. You started with some dreams and a thought that standing on the “different” edge of the world must have a pretty interesting view.

So you dedicate your actions to this principle.
And when you get asked “what do you want to do?” you simply respond “I want to be happy on my own terms”.

“And what are those terms?” they ask.

You simply reply “ I’ll see as I go with it”.

That’s scary. Misunderstood. People will tend to think you’re on the path to self-destruction, when in fact you’re on the path of self-discovery.

Nothing’s so grave and serious to not be worth your energy investment. And when you look at it, you need to really look at it. Not look back, not look forward. Simply look at it, now, in the present and if the answer is “this is so right, it soothes ME, my SOUL, my SELF” then you’re good. It doesn’t have to soothe others.

It will never soothe other people around you.

But if it soothes you and it gives meaning to your days, then it’s worth the investment of time, work, dedication, sacrifice and energy, at the expense of other’s peoples pleas.

And, if by conscious will, you somehow manage to make this happen while at the same time you balance it out with the people in your life, then…

You’re already a master.

❤